Happy fathers day?

A day that should be filled with love and and a scrapbook of memories is instead filled with hatred and envy. You should be the one that I celebrate instead you"re the one I hate and wish didnt exist for you"re very existence I have missed. I should be praiseing you with open arms instead I"m  wishing I didnt know you and that I wasnt you:"re kid. Being a father isn"t just getting a woman pregnant its the joys of knowing that you"ll always be there unconditional love and showing that you care. Any boy can make a child but a real man will stay there and help raise it. Instead being there you chose to do the opposit. The sad part of it all is not that you weren"t there but I will never know true love from a man. Some say a girl"s father is the first man she loves. I never had a dad so who can I say I trust? There are no memories no pictures of us. I just hope one day I can find true love without thinking that every man is a duplicate of discust.